Dramatic Changes

Our lives are constantly changing in some form or another, little by little. Big dramatic changes only happen over time. Unless something truly dramatic (and often tragic) happens in your life.

For most of my life I have believed the same things, done the same things.... Sure, there have been changes, but they happen naturally over time. This past year there have been some truly dramatic events in my life (some tragic) and the change I've experienced in just the past couple of months in my own life is greater than I believe I would have ever achieved.

I have always been trying to find my identity. In the past few years I felt I was coming closer and closer to an answer, only (as luck would have it) to have a huge roadblock keep me from finding that answer. Now, I feel as though I am back at square one. My personal beliefs have taken a few dramatic turns. My lifestyle, even parts that haven't changed my entire life have been redefined in just the past couple of months. In a since, I'm a completely different person than I was just a few months ago. I forced these changes on myself. I could no longer live with the same ideals and traditions that my previous life held. It was much too painful. I had to change to live.

I'm not sure what the point of this is except that perhaps there is no answer to life. Many of us spend our lives trying to find our identity, trying to find our true selves, etc. I have come to believe that perhaps it doesn't exist.

My philosophical 2 cents.